Find the Beauty

This world is an incredible place. Full of darkness, yes, but also beauty. In the midst of the worst pains and the worst hell, still light bursts forth in shining color.
I see it everywhere I look. Perhaps my eyes are accustomed to looking for the beauty. When you've known pain as much and as long as I have, sometimes the only thing you can do is strain your eyes and look. Keep looking.
Because as dark as it is, there's light somewhere. Beyond the distant fog, you can just make out the shapes of mountains, of flowers and rivers.
It never looks quite like you'd expect, when the world is so dark. If you're looking for something bright and bold you won't always find it. Sometimes, when the dark is bad enough, you just keep peeling your eyes. You have to. Because the only thing that keeps you going is that streak of light so far in the distance it seems untouchable.
Everything seems too far away when you are in the dark moments.
The only thing you can do is keep walking forward, because you know there is nothing for you behind. And sometimes, you can still find beauty, even in the brokenness. When you look at a flower fading quickly and you can just make out the last bits of color that keep it barely hanging on. When you see a silhouette tree with a beauty that is haunting but it is beauty nevertheless.
Keep walking.
The pain can't last forever. It can't.
Sooner or later you'll stumble and crawl your way along and one day you'll look back to see you're standing on the top of a mountain. No longer is the sun hidden by the daunting, rocky peak, but you can see it, just starting to rise over the horizon.
Behind you there is nothing, all is death and ashes. But before you the sun is rising, and the landscape is lush, green, bubbling and alive-free.
The road is still not safe, still steep and the dirt beneath is loose and uncertain. But here there rests a choice. Either go ahead and face the risk of failure in this new landscape- or go back, where the road is just as unstable, to a place you know is dead and lifeless.
There is beauty and pain no matter where you go. Sometimes it's more obvious, sometimes it isn't. When the beauty isn't obvious, keep looking. It's out there.
When it is obvious, embrace it. Breathe in every life giving second with an unmatched eagerness. Remember it. When you find yourself trapped in the dark once more-remember the joy of light.
It will come again, just keep walking forward.